Over the course of the past few weeks...I have struggled. And struggled. And struggled a little more. And finally come to a realization and a place of comfortability. I struggled with actually being Miss Kentucky.I love myself as a person. I am in love with being Miss Kentucky. I struggled with finding the proper balance in being myself and being Miss Kentucky. And I, for the life of me, could not understand why...why was I struggling with something I was so sure I could attain, because I knew that I had what it took to accomplish that goal...the goal of being Miss Kentucky. I knew that this would be my year, because I had come to a place in which I was so comfortable with myself, in my own skin, and I had the heart to take on the job.
Sooo...WHY WAS I STRUGGLING?!? I struggled because I allowed myself to be lost in translation. I began worrying that people were expecting me to be some other kind of Miss Kentucky other than the Miss Kentucky that I am. I attained the crown by being myself...showing myself, and everyone around me...who I am. Crown or no crown. Who you see when I am wearing the crown, is who you see when I'm wearing my favorite nike sweats with the hole in the left thigh, and my glasses. I am Djuan Keila Trent. Whether I am wearing the crown or not...I am who I am. I are who I be. I be who I is. Djuan Keila Trent.
In the midst of all of the unneccessary confusion I was experiencing...
three quotes came to mind:
"The most successful girl in the world, is the girl who can be herself."
"Titles do not define me, they simply preceed me."
"Who are you? You're Djuan Keila Trent."
The last quote comes from my mother, Lafondra Venita Gaudette. Almost everyday leading up to Miss Kentucky this year, she asked me that. It may seem silly to some, but...it really kept me grounded. It was a good reminder, to never forget who I am. I can only be me.That's why there is only one me...that's why I'm Djuan n Only...haha...but really. I am fearfully and wonderfully made like no other. And that my friends, is all :o)
I have been blessed enough to have a couple of experiences over the past few weeks that have served as confirmation for me that I am in the right place in my life, doing the right thing, at the right time.
Thank you everyone so much for all of the love and support you have shown me. It means more to me than you can know. And I mean that. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!
...more to come later this week. i promise :o)
AlwaysLove,
DjuanKeilaTrent
I love you Djuan!!! and did you forget that I now OWN those favorite nike sweats of yours??? HA!!!!
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ReplyDeleteLove it, Miss Kentucky! I think this is something a lot of us struggle with during our year of service.... <3
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